I got a new computer!
My old one gave up the ghost last year. Considering that I bought that computer in 2012, it did its job admirably well. It struggled at the end though. I really should have replaced it years ago, but I was very, very poor. I’m still poor, just less so now that I have a full time and salaried position. It took me the better part of the year to save up for this magnificent machine, and I had to make some sacrifices to do it–for instance, now I’m not going to make my end-of-year savings goals–but I think it’ll be worth it.
At the very least, it’ll be nice to be able to write more. Yes, you can write with anything. A napkin and a pen are perennial favorites. My ADHD brain, however, was trained to write with a computer and it’s just so much easier for me to keep track of everything when it’s all in one place. I have notebooks upon notebooks–all for different purposes–and I also have a tendency to lose them. I have to be very, very careful with my things, lest the disappear on me.
What are my plans for this fabulous new machine?
I plan on doing all the things that I was unable to easily do without it. Namely, write, open an Etsy shop (or something) for the silly dragons I can’t stop making, use it to record and edit the audio for Tangling Tales, use it to start a YouTube channel, write, and write some more.
I do plan on writing more here. I don’t know how often. I’m hoping at least once a month. It doesn’t matter, I don’t have any readers, but I do want to have some sort of discipline and this is an outlet for me. So, maybe once a month?
The big thing is: I want to start writing professionally. I want to get published. I have a notebook full of ideas and I want to put them to use. Long term, it’d be great if I could make a living following my dreams. I’m not ready to give up on them, you know? And I’ve sacrificed so much–too much to not live how I want to live. (We’ll get to that in a later post.)
For my future
I figure the next two to three years are going to be a time of rapid change for me, personally, and that change can be positive but only if I work at it. I also suspect that the next several years are going to be a time of great stress for many of the greater communities to which I belong. I need to do what I can to thrive–I think we all do–that’s the only way for us to survive.
And the thing is, for me survival is not enough. I’ve spent the last couple of decades simply surviving and I can’t do that anymore. Not when it’s not on my terms. I refuse to subject myself to a joyless existence. Everything in my life has to add value to my life. I’m done being depleted by the world around me.
I’m unsure how to accomplish this, but I’m determined.
To sum up
- I got a new computer.
- I’m going to be writing more.
- I’m going to be posting more here. Maybe.
- And I’m going to work towards some goals I’ve had for a while that I never really thought could happen, but now kinda look like they will.
- Also, I’m not going to be putting up with anything that drains me.
Knotting the Wind 